The LORD is waiting too!!

As I was grumbling today about how 'my plans' have not worked out to have Daniel (oh lets see in October of 2010), God reminded me of the Esther study I had done last year.  It is tough being a woman who can balance passion with patience.  Some days I have balanced them well, but most days I fail misserably!  I am either scared to death of how this is going to affect our family or want to jump on a plane right now and bring him home!  So you can see, the balance is not there!  Isaish 30:18 says, "Yet the LORD longs to be gracious to you;  he rises to show you compassion.  For the LORD is a God of justice.  Blessed are all who wait for Him.  I am again reminded, that God is also waiting to unite us as a family.  Only He knows the perfect timing.  And there is a purpose to our wait.  Some of the reasons have been revealed already, and I am most thankful to God for seeing them.  The Lord has me at a spot now, where my heart aches for Daniel. 

For those who have not heard how our adoption journey began, I will give you a brief background.  Four years ago our family went on a Vacation to Jamacia.  My heart began to bleed for the poverty, and God opened our eyes to the fatherless children.  Shortly after arriving home, I began to research adoption.  I was first lead to Ethiopia.  My ideas were always a 1 year old boy.  Seemed like a good plan.  We signed up with Christian World Adoption because God had lead us to them through various circumstances.  Well as usual, when you are following your own plan, it gets interuupted.  We had to put our adoption on hold due to many reasons.  January of 2010, God had opened the doors again.  I started looking into Ethiopia with CWA.  Well, one day I just decided to peek at the waiting children in China.  And there he was!  The most precious little boy with deformed hands.  The video broke my heart!  He was so sad, and they kept picking on his hands.  The poor honey could barely look up.  He was completly broken inside.  I knew that day, he was our child.  But wait!  What about the language!  He wasn't a toddler!  China!  These are not my plans, this is not what I wanted!  This could be HARD!  But hard can be good.  The verse that has gotten me through this process is out of the Amplified Bible it is Habakkuk 3:19 The Lord God is my strength, my personal bravery and my invinsible army.  He makes my feet like hinds feet.  Not to stand in terror, but to walk.  He will make spiritual progress on my high places of trouble, suffering or responsiblity.  I have wanted to stand in terror many days!  But have chosen to walk one foot in front of the other as God has lead us.  I am not capable of parenting a 6 year old boy with who knows what in his past, that can not speak English.  I am not capable, but God has given me everything that I need in Him to do what He has called me to do.  I can not take away his past, but the Lord can!  Please pray for Daniel Joseph Dong Fu Weis.  Pray his heart would be soft, and God would remove his heart of stone and give him a heart of flesh.